✖annoy✖

so fast
almost come to the end of Tuesday

I don't know want how to describe my feeling for this few weeks
just feel that really want to bang myself to the wall
hate myself till infinity
haiz~~~

✖心情的转换✖

很快地
星期四来了

除了星期一去办理我的appeal后
我就再也没有出门了
直到昨晚突然被同学约去吃宵夜
我也没想那么多就跟着去了

坐在mamak档又吃又喝又聊
突然被他们问道做么酱多天没去上学的
我也不懂要讲什么理由
所以就讲“懒惰咯”

事实上我是因为害怕面对我那丑恶的成绩
怕会被老师朋友看不起所以才不去上课的
可是当我不是一个人躲在家的时候
有朋友跟我聊天 开玩笑时
不懂为什么我就会忘掉那些我不想面对的问题
而且今天我终于去上课了

刚才
午餐后回家的途中
aa打了通电话找我
问了我appeal against termination的东西
回到家
感觉很绝望
似乎我成功的几率是很低的
我看这次我真的要出来工作了...

✖1st day of y2s1✖

Monday again~~~

1st day of opening school

After woke up 

I was feel so lazy to do everything and just sat in front of lappy to watch those video in u-tube

Until 2something 

is time to prepare go to school to settle my stuff

When all done 

I was heading to Tesco and walk around

Lastly

hide myself in a small room again

Actually 

always hide myself in a room will made me feel emo

and will always think something about negative

So, 

just now when I went out 

the fresh air from outdoor can made me released some stress and bad emotion 

*actually the quality of the air was not so good but at least better than just breathe with the air in room

Mmmm....

that's all 

almost heading to meet someone 

good night

annyoung

-joen-

✖G.B.M✖

no mood 

feel so blue

even feel upset to do everything

my motivation gone

feel very disappointed

feel so shame to face all ppl 

especially my parent

nt dare to tell them the truth

juz wanna hide myself in a place

no any energy to make me do everything

bt in this period
i juz noe how to cry only
so keep crying crying n crying
really scare all things will happen without in my expectation

conclusion

im nt brave enuf to face d troublesome prob TT'''

hope everything cn happen without that worse as i expected

-joen-